Friday, May 05, 2006
Leaving the Comfort Zone
I've really never been one to take risks, I think it's because over the years, I've been hurt by the one's I've taken and have always been scared to try again. I'm always looking three - four months in the future to see where I'll be with my bills and what kind of shopping budget I'll have. I like to play it safe. Which has led to a pretty boring life of late.
For the past 12 years I've been content with what life had dealt me and worked a job where at the very least I was appriciated and made a decent buck. I made some friends (and some enemies) and I played it safe and didn't move when better oppurtunities arose, because men in general don't want to leave thier comfort zone.
I bought a house 6 years ago that I could barely afford then, but I had a roommate and then a wife to help pay some of the bills, which eased much of the financial burdon. I wanted to live the American dream. I really wanted to get out of the "Bud Bundy Suite" in my parents basement. Yes it could be considered a risk, by I knew in the long run it was a smart financial decision.
But due to circumstances beyond my control. I've been at a new job for 6 weeks and have to sell my house- Neither of which is in my "Comfort Zone" but was a nescesity.
The new job has been a pain in the ass first of all, because it's less money than the BK, but mostly because nobody has any idea what I'm doing, including me. They have 7 different people teaching me 7 different ways on how to make a sandwich. and then the big boss comes in at the end of a station to see how I'm doing- he yells at me becuase he can't beleive after three days on a station, I don't do it his way. But worse than that, he called me "Lazy". I've been called and Asshole, Son of a Bitch, & Fucking Prick- and it didn't bother me becuase at the time, I probably was. But never in my life have I been lazy.
That caused me to finally snap at him this week and told him "I don't care how important you think you are but you don't talk down to me infront of co-workers, I'm pulling you off to the side for this and I would hope for the same respect in return. And don't you ever call me lazy becuase I don't seem to be getting what is taught me. I'm being taught 7 different ways to take orders and it changes everyday. If you want me to get it right, maybe you need to sit down with everyone you have training me and make sure they are all on the same page, becuase this is bull shit the way you people are trying to train me."
needless to say, he wasn't too happy with me, but I know that there was a meeeting with the rest of the managers the next day where my training was one of the topics.
Having been living alone for 18 months now, I will officially have cleaned out me savings by July 1st and that's not even counting Taxes due in July that aren't in my escrow. so it is with much sadness that I must now sell my house. And I can't even look for a new place till mine is under contract to sell, becuase I have no $$$ to put torward a new house till mine is sold.
The only Positive right now is School where I was told by my teacher I could be the funniest person in the class if I didn't step over the line of deceny (using Cum Guzzling Whore is to descriptivly off color for her). I'm done with level A as of Thursday and start level B on the 18th. It's the one place in life I'm allowing myself to get out of my Comfort Zone.
For the past 12 years I've been content with what life had dealt me and worked a job where at the very least I was appriciated and made a decent buck. I made some friends (and some enemies) and I played it safe and didn't move when better oppurtunities arose, because men in general don't want to leave thier comfort zone.
I bought a house 6 years ago that I could barely afford then, but I had a roommate and then a wife to help pay some of the bills, which eased much of the financial burdon. I wanted to live the American dream. I really wanted to get out of the "Bud Bundy Suite" in my parents basement. Yes it could be considered a risk, by I knew in the long run it was a smart financial decision.
But due to circumstances beyond my control. I've been at a new job for 6 weeks and have to sell my house- Neither of which is in my "Comfort Zone" but was a nescesity.
The new job has been a pain in the ass first of all, because it's less money than the BK, but mostly because nobody has any idea what I'm doing, including me. They have 7 different people teaching me 7 different ways on how to make a sandwich. and then the big boss comes in at the end of a station to see how I'm doing- he yells at me becuase he can't beleive after three days on a station, I don't do it his way. But worse than that, he called me "Lazy". I've been called and Asshole, Son of a Bitch, & Fucking Prick- and it didn't bother me becuase at the time, I probably was. But never in my life have I been lazy.
That caused me to finally snap at him this week and told him "I don't care how important you think you are but you don't talk down to me infront of co-workers, I'm pulling you off to the side for this and I would hope for the same respect in return. And don't you ever call me lazy becuase I don't seem to be getting what is taught me. I'm being taught 7 different ways to take orders and it changes everyday. If you want me to get it right, maybe you need to sit down with everyone you have training me and make sure they are all on the same page, becuase this is bull shit the way you people are trying to train me."
needless to say, he wasn't too happy with me, but I know that there was a meeeting with the rest of the managers the next day where my training was one of the topics.
Having been living alone for 18 months now, I will officially have cleaned out me savings by July 1st and that's not even counting Taxes due in July that aren't in my escrow. so it is with much sadness that I must now sell my house. And I can't even look for a new place till mine is under contract to sell, becuase I have no $$$ to put torward a new house till mine is sold.
The only Positive right now is School where I was told by my teacher I could be the funniest person in the class if I didn't step over the line of deceny (using Cum Guzzling Whore is to descriptivly off color for her). I'm done with level A as of Thursday and start level B on the 18th. It's the one place in life I'm allowing myself to get out of my Comfort Zone.
# posted by Vince L. @ 10:21 PM 
